I just had an epiphany today “Everyone here speaks French!” Old people, young people, homeless people, stupid people, children, and stupid little children all know how to speak French.  I’m studying day after day, harder than anything I ever studied in college, but still I’m just not quite able to have a conversation.

However, if I step outside I am bound to see some little kid walking along rattling off perfect French to her mother and thinking nothing of it.  What else is there in the world, besides language, that I could study for so long, and yet I know I will never know as well as some little kid on the street?

It is discouraging and hopeful at the same time.  Everyone here speaks French. Some of them are probably dumber than me, if they can learn it, then I should be able to as well.  But on the flip side, some of these people are probably dumber than me, why is it so hard to learn something that they never thought twice about knowing?

I know it’s only been a little over six months since I started studying hard and serious.  With more time and studying I will get better.  It’s just an interesting place I find myself in today.  All I have to do is walk to my window and look at the people below.  Literally all of them already know the thing that I am spending so much time studying.